Sunday, April 5, 2009
Aku lemah...
Aku binatang...
Aku kental...
Aku penipu...
I really want to change myself and there goes a problem that im just facing with lastnite.I dont know why must it be happen.Im not here to hunt for that.I just want some peace.Now i cant relax my mind.What should i do now?
I think i just move on...
Chat with Erma lastnite for a while.Then she told me that her guy don trust us that we are just a fren.Come on lah guy,aku ngan die kawan saje.Kalau hal dulu tu semue cerita lama.Asal kau nak repeat hal tu kat aku...
Nvm lah...
Now,i cant contact with Erma for the time being.Hey boi,aku buat nie semue pasal kehendak kau ehk.Jangan kerana senyap aku budak taik tau.Kau ingat kau mane punye ASAI kau blh buat pape?Itu kau punye pasal lah.Tapi kau ingat,kalau kau jatohkan darah aku ke lantai,aku akan jatohkan kau punye darah jugak tau.Sekarang nie aku tk fanatic tau.Tapi jangan mcm2 ngan aku tau.Kau panggil sapa pon aku tk kesah lah.Lu tak goyang?
Kita tengok nanti sapa yang tk goyang...
I dont want to be a gangster.I just want to be a normal person.I dont want to repeat my gangster time.Cz now i want to be a successful person...
Last saturday,went to my cousins wedding at around 12noon.Once reached,salam with my uncles,aunties,cousins and many more...The food was quite nice.I was eating my food and theres a kendarat gurl pass through my table.I stared at her.She just stare back at me.Her face was like my ex-gf,Lina.And the pelamin was damn beautiful.
Saw my cousins from johor who is on my father side.They sat together with my mum,my brother,uncle,aunty,and cik enah.And i just stand behind my mums chair while talking to them.And suddenly,cik enah said"mataer kau amcm?"...I was damn shocked seh.I dont know if she know that hamimah and me are not together anymore...She thought that im lying.then my uncle and aunty talking about "my mataer"...Korang punye pasal lah.Asalkan korang happy sudah...
Please lah,aku ngan hamimah dh tk ade hubungan lagik.Aku sekarang nk blajar and tknk ade mataer lagik.Asal korang tk percaye nie.Haix...
Im stressed and confused...
Just wanna say,sorry for everything that i've done to you guys...
And i think that im not gonna live long...
Cz i know that im gonna die soon...
Seriously,minta maaf ape aku dah buat kat korang...
Kalau aku tkde kt dunia lagik,tolonglah jangan rindu aku...
Aku di dunia nie selalu nk sesuatu tetapi semuenye tk dimakmurkan...
Hingga disini sahaja...
Erma,just take good care of yrself.N don do any stupid things.Im will be fine...
Mirul,tolong tengok2 kan familyku,kawanku,erma dan juga hamimah...
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(i felt sad.im crying...)
